Blast From the Past

I got home tonight after a stressful day at work and opened my email. Too my surprise I found an email from J in Minneapolis. It read. . . “how are you? You buff and hot for me yet? J” Wow, what a surprise! I haven’t talked to J in forever and always thought he had just forgot about me. Don’t know how I will respond, I’ll have to think about it for a bit. I had a great time meeting J in Minneapolis the summer before last. We had a lot of fund together and I had hoped to get him here down to Kansas City. I would really enjoy seeing him again. . yes, I would! (evil grin)

As far as last Sunday, I had a pretty good time with B. We went and saw Dan in Real Life and it was a surprisingly good movie. I don’t think there was any love connection with B, but it was nice to meet someone new. We are such opposites though, its amazing. Everything he liked, I didn’t and vice verse. I should call him later this week though, he seemed like a truly nice guy.

And while I’m on the subject of boys, I need to give B a call also. I looked up his profile on match.com and in some of his pics he looked really cute and in others not so much. He seems cool though. Who knows, maybe I’ll end up going to see him up in Chicago much like I did J in Minneapolis. I wouldn’t mind a trip up to the windy city. . . lets go!

Oh, and by the way. . . Happy Halloween!

First Meeting

In about an hour or so I’m going to meet someone in person for the first time. We have been chatting on gay.com off and on for a while so we thought we would get together for a bit to catch a movie. I just checked the movies a while ago and there is absolutely nothing on that sounds even remotely interesting. B said this afternoon that he had a couple DVD’s that he hasn’t watched yet so we may just spend the evening doing that.

I hate first meetings. For me they are always very uncomfortable and no matter how well you get along, its just all very strange. I don’t really know how much I’m looking forward to this but I guess the worst that could happen is that I meet a new friend. Of course I think the real reason I’m hesitant about meeting is that I’m afraid that I will like him and that it won’t be reciprocal. Just like the last time I did this. And I really, really liked J.  Damned if you do and damned if you don’t. lol. But how am I to meet a future husband if I don’t put myself out there. And I need to be out there big time.

Its 7:10pm now, I need to get ready. He should be calling very soon.

Cam to Cam

This evening I was chatting a bit on gay.com after I got home from work. I was soon privated by an extremely good looking guy who was 22 year old. We chatted for quite a bit and I was really enjoying meeting someone knew who seemed half way decent. After a while we moved off of the gay.com platform and onto yahoo. Conversation eventually leads to cams so we turn them on. Yup, this guy is the same one in the profile. He then informs me that he likes to play on cam. Well, thats cool, buy I’m not gonna play on cam for some guy I don’t know. For all I know there are 5 guys on the other side of the cam and this is all a big joke. It didn’t turn out to be a joke. This guy lifts his shirt, whips it out and starts jacking off.  All they way!  I can’t say that I didn’t enjoy it because like I said, this guy was damn hot!  After he finished his show, we said our goodbyes and went our seperate ways.  I wonder if we will chat again?  Or maybe cam to cam. . . hehe

A Night at the Museum

So its Friday night and I really don’t feel like going out. Instead, I rented a movie from one of the Redbox machines that are in front of a lot of McDonalds .

Its been forever since I’ve rented a movie and sat at home to watch. I used to rent movies all the time but my attention span is so short anymore that it usually takes me a couple days to get through one. Rentals at the Redbox are only a dollar so I thought what the hec. I rented Night at the Museum and am watching it now. Its pretty silly but I like Ben Stiller and mindless movies are right up my alley.

I had intended to go to Missie B’s tonight but after I got back from my run at the gym I just couldn’t get motivated to get out. I don’t have any clean clothes anyway. Laundry tomorrow! Blech. I need a maid.

I don’t have anything planned this weekend so I don’t know what I’ll do. Would like to go out to Worlds of Fun tomorrow night but I doubt I can get anyone to go. WOF does a great job with the Halloween nights and the lines for the rides are usually really short. Shoot, I probly just end up at Missie’s. lol

Anyway, back to the movie. . .

Mileage May Vary

This morning as I was driving over to my Aunts house to visit her and my parents who had come up to visit, I noticed the milage on my car was 101,010.

Wow, can’t believe I’ve driven this Saturn so much. When I got it the car only had 9 miles on it. Its been a pretty damn good car. Hopefully it will last a bit long. I will most certainly be driving this puppy to the ground.

Spent the day with my Aunt and parents doing some running around. It was nice, but they can wear me out sometimes. I was hoping that they would come to my apartment this evening, but they decided to stay at my Aunts. It kinda disappoints me that they come up to visit and wont even bother coming into town. I don’t live that far away from my Aunts house. Oh well.

So this evening I went to the Plaza to see the Waterfire art exhibit on Brush Creek. Sounded like it was going to be really cool but since it rained so much this morning it was canceled. That sucked because when they did it in September I completely forgot about it and missed it. Guess it just wasn’t meant to be!

 

Late night babblings

Its very late, I just got home from Missie B’s. Work was very uneventful today, which I like. Went to yoga class after work and really enjoyed it. L is getting better, much better at being an instructor. After yoga I went to the gym and ran/walked 2.5 miles which is more distance than I have done since I have started jogging again. The only problem is that it is very indemidating for me to go the the gym when there are so many built guys working out. I feel so scrawny. But hey, I’m from a different generation where we didn’t grow up going to gyms. None the less, I did what I went out to do and I’m proud of myself. I’ve been working out for a couple weeks now and it makes me feel good again. I’m just used to doing it at home alone with no one else around.

Talked to my Mother today and found out my parents are going to come up and visit this weekend. We will see how that goes. As much as I love my parents, its always a strain when they come up, don’t know why, but it is.

Been thinking about go’n on a trip again. . . I know I canceled the last one, but it seems to be seeping in my veins. Not really excited about going anywhere by myself, but I have no one else to travel with. (cry me a river!) Just thinking about a November shopping trip to Chicago. We shall see. . .

Feeling kinda lonely tonight. . . Guess I should be used to it though. heh. Been thinking about A way to much recently.

I’m off to bed. Goodnight world.

Quiet Weekend

Gosh, the past couple of days have been so uneventful, I haven’t really had anything to write about. My minds a blank. . . But thats nothing new! heh.

This afternoon S and I were going to go to Out In Westport but it started to pour down with rain right as we arrived. So we decided to go shopping. Hit Oak Park Mall, Target, Best Buy, and Old Navy. I bought nothing but it was fun hang’n with S again. We haven’t spent a Sunday afternoon together in a long time.

After that I went to the gym. I love my new gym here at the apartment complex. Its really nothing special but I’m usually the only one there which makes it kinda nice. Had a really good workout which makes me feel good about myself. Just need to keep it up.

Tonight I went to Tootsies and ending up talking to J most of the night. He’s such a nice guy and fun to pal around with. Hopefully he can go to The Beast with D, D and others when we go next week. I can hardly wait.

Tried to get Garth Brooks tickets earlier this morning but ALL FUCKING 9 SHOWS WERE SOLD OUT. Whats up with that? Hopefully Ticketmaster will release more tickets in the coming days, they usually do. I would really like to go, but if I can’t, no biggie. We shall see.

So thats a wrap, back to work tomorrow. Monday Monday. . .

Yoga and Cigarettes

This evening I attended my first Yoga class. L is in training to become a certified yoga instructor so tonight was the first of 8 required classes he must instruct. B and I went and there were a few others. I’ve never done any yoga so this was something completely new to me. L did a pretty good job for his first class, it will take time for him to smooth his delivery. I think I’ll try to attend his other classes. If nothing else, its something to do.

After I write this I am going to bed. At that time today will be the first day in a long time that I have gone a complete 24 hours without a cigarette. I really want one right now but I’m gonna see how long I can go. Hopefully I can kick this again. I think the Wellbutrin I’m taking is helping to stop the craving because when I smoke they taste really bad. So one day down!